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YINLING ♥ | | Birds flying high You know how I feel Sun in the sky You know how I feel Reeds driftin' on by You know how I feel It's a new dawn It's a new day It's a new life For me And I'm feeling good |
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raggedy muse
1:37 PM 'Blasphemy Raspberry.' My sis keeps repeating it for no reason whatsoever. Just being random here. Today is my first day out of the company of drama people since my hols started, i.e. no need to go to school, whee. And finally, Inventio group settled, after a small episode fuelled by, certain... well let's not say. Me is considerably happy with me group, Dewei, Lesley, Schwaaa, Jen Jen and new addition Zhi Peng, whom we are having faith in to step up. (: Now to started ploughing through book shelves to find scripts, or start conceptualising one for ourselves. Hmmmms. Need to catch up on reading my Great Expectations, (I am erm 14 chpts behind? When i finished all of Brave New World, how smart.) But well I've always savoured a perverse dystopia more than a buildungsroman(Is that how you spell it? Rrrrr, my spelling sucks.) Certain thoughts after drama comm interview. I sounded real good, sure of myself and ready to take on whatever hits me. Perhaps I sounded better than what I really could achieve. At the back of mind I know that if I do get this, its gonna be one hell of a time, in both senses of its connotations. As madam put it, am I willing to face the pressure that comes with my heightened visibility not only as a leader, but also as a scholar (however over-rated it may be), and a person. But as I said so myself, its partly the reason I stepped out of my comfort-zone to traverse into a new environment, to not settle just for mediocrity, but for excellence. (Haha, funny the way it sounds.) The support of my friends to just go for it, the encouragement and affirmation, I thank you guys for it. But well taking the analogy that Johanna used, I have already put my name into the Goblet of Fire, no turning back now. Whether my name its spat back out, that's up to fate that lies in the hands of certain people. Whatever the result, I know now that I had better jolly well live up to my words. And I think I can do it. There isn't a reason why I should not. Rrrrrr. raggedy muse
11:21 PM Tonight was an pseudo-emo one, started off by nick. Singing emo songs on the way home, have expressions of emo-ness at the dinner table. It was a sweet emo at the hospital where mark just finished his tyhroid(i can't spell it) operation, and we all love mark. A huge bunch of people surounding his bed, he must feel much loved. (: A busy busy day once more, starting off with econs class, drama comm interview (!!!), followed by bang bang rehearsals, and at the amazing speed at which drama people move and how long the shuttle bus to NUH takes and how we are inherently apt at killing time, I got home at 10. 45, late as I have been the last few days of dinners and choir concert etc. And something that happened 2 nights ago still perplexes me. Who on earth was it that called me and woke me from my slumber at 2 plus in the night, that impersonated mark by virtue of me guessing that it was him, said i love you, and freaked me out. I only realised it was not mark that called when I asked him about it the next day. And that gave me the chills. Odd feeling of vague familiarity with that voice. Perhaps I'm thinking too much. Perhaps its just some prank call. But why does it nag me so. Perhaps it was the way the numerous 'hmms.' where delivered. Perhaps it was the way those three words were said. Perhaps. Perhaps, Perhaps. And I don't my query will ever be answered. raggedy muse
8:02 PM 时间的流逝 从不停息 源源不断 它滔滔不绝。 i haven't got much to say. well, if you're bored, go look in yesterday's life section in straits times. HAHA. hint: look out for a wash of blue. oh yes, and i didn't do too bad for Theasthai! wheeee. still a little bit of your song in my ear. 你也从没回头。 那么，就这样吧。 像我們從未邂逅過，就忘記我曾經這麽為你不理智不清醒過. raggedy muse
10:06 PM A half day at school today! Island cremery and macs after that (omg, i'm gonna bloat like a balloon), home to sleep (eat, sleep, ah, the pleasures of life) Then the secretive meeting organised by our darling sianying, since 2 weeks ago, insisting that WE ALL MUST BE FREE THIS FRIDAY, for something very important it seemed. I never suspected much, till chu suggested, "Hasn't it occured to you that he could just be back?" Hmm. Made sense, but didn't want to get hopes up. And indeed, a utter failure in the element of surprise, Alvin appeared in front of our very eyes. Dinner at cafe cartel, went home as usual playing gooseberry, well too bad fangfang lives near to me ok, and we caught the fireworks for arts fest on the way out. whee. prettyyyy fireworks. DEP Theasthai results tmr, tralala. Early in the morning. Glad you're back Alvin. I'm sure someone else is even happier. (: raggedy muse
7:37 PM Due to the constant nagging from josh and joel, I have finally succumbed to the pressure, to do something I have not done here before. A break-through, a step forward, a... er, surprise? Ah, whatever. NAH, HERE YOU GO. YOU BETTER BLOODY WELL TAG. Or i'm gonna die of depression and inferiority and lament my lack of friends and readership night and day. raggedy muse
5:36 PM As the title suggests, yes my butt hurts. From the sliding down in nlb dance, and contrary to what I would like to think, I doubt its because I'm too skinny. Its the last week of school, and I can't wait for it to end. Need some recharge time, and June hols are just timely. Not as if we'll be very free, everyone has all sorts of things to do, and terms to mug for. But still, a holiday counts for something. I miss the dancers missing in action from school, all the best for Restless guys! Now thinking about it, I should have signed up for CAP. Darn. It would be fun spending a week with chu, schwa, szus and getting to know new people, increase my prospects at a non-existant love-life (ha.) and I've always liked camps, esp with creative writing workshops and theatre workshops. How fun. Too late. Whee. Yes, please remind chu to help me bring stockings tmr, and hopefully I can fit into the white boy shorts yelyn is helping us get. Lovely. Looking forward to prancing around in front of ministers tmr. (: AH IM HUNGRY. raggedy muse
11:01 PM But why, Under the facade of words that allude, Refer to a subject that once was and now is not, To break the theatrical illusion, The fourth wall of memory, The chastity of yonder, The purity of what has to fade. To reopen an unsealed wound, To shuffle the allusion of your words so loosely, To let that budding flower of a new-born Spring, Which has lay dormant in the darkest winters, To be exposed, And prematurely forced petal by wrinkled petal, Apart. A love that once was, An illusion that once was lost, A shattered mess of dis-repair. The pieces flushed upon the shores, Brought back, rushed again, Lacerating surface of the sand. And this bitterness, Arrives not in unforgiveness, Not in tarry and stagnation, But in a disappointment. A desecration of an illusion, Of what was true and pure. And perhaps, In the depths, I Desire. That all is not what I make out to be, That all be what I know could never be. Tye-melane. raggedy muse
6:06 PM Huzzah! Theasthai is done! And we all enjoyed ourselves, and my sisters and long lost act 3 friend kim came to watch me. People seemed to enjoy our piece, so hurray! Everyone said they really liked mao mao's Kuo Pao Kun's commiting suicide piece. I WANT TO WATCHHH. bleh. Got lots of chocs, a cookie, flowers and a, well, yes, banana. Trust nick and dheraj to come up with such ideas. Went out after that with bunch of cj kids who were with kim, with dewei, chu, nat, rachel and chu's weird friend ben, as well as markie darling and yelyn. I was running about between Starbucks and BK to talk to bunches of different people, kop-ping people's food for me is broke from all the paying for tickets, taxi fares blah blah. On another note, I got the humanities scholarship! How cool is that. Ebel came over this morning, made my hair one frizzy mess with tons of hairspray and rollers, took loads of photos, and I had to wash it all off again. NLB dance rehearsal again tmr, my dancing debut (AHAHAA) on thurs, josh and joel coming back to ac tmr, and I didn't go for the outing today to watch spidey 3, too tired and lazy. hee. Its odd how we are so excited after just a 3-5 min performance, but well, we survived our first practical exam for DEP intact, so I suppose its a cause for celebration. Now to brace ourselves for the last week of school and our academic pursuits towards terms after June hols. Must begin living up to myself as a humanities scholar (HA). raggedy muse
10:15 AM Just finished the arduous process of printing my GP opposing viewpoints articles in the library. Me no like the intranet, and neither does it like me. Thesthai is TOMMOROW (OMG). Me and Dewei have been over-intellectualising the whole process, causing us to over-do things and destroy the comedy as well as what we started off with. We recognised it and decided we're just gonna have fun and do what we always do, and what we do best. (: NLB dance isn't that bad anymore, again over-intellectualising, so decided should just have fun! Just hope I don't trip and fall with that dress and don't kill dheraj who has to lift me. Bang Bang rehearsals have been refreshing, its been a while since I've done a proper production, and the actress in me is itching, same for Dewei, haha. Hella glad I'm in Bang Bang. Going for some SYF emcee thingy later, SO I CAN'T GO FOR THE HWA CHONG DRAMA THINGY WITH FANG AND SIAN AND SHAN. And they can't come for Theasthai. Ah, like everyone can't make it. Actually I MIGHT be able to make it tonight, but I didn't want to take that risk and had to let the ticket go. boo hooooo. Nobody Loves Me, Everybody Hates Me, I'm Gonna Eat Some Wormsssss. Actually its, Yay, I Think 2 People Love Me, for 2 peple have declared 'I Love You' online yesterday night, in response to my pseudo-emoness. Yay. (: I love you too ning and josh! hearts. In a more reflective mood, really enjoying my life now, despite all the work and staying back late. I absolutely love the people around me, I've never felt better about myself (its been a long way in progress), and I love doing what I love. Only glitch is that no one can come for Theasthai, sobs. But its ok~!(: And for the first time in my whole entire pathetic existence in the Singapore education system, I HAVE GOT A SILVER FOR NAPFA WITHOUT A HITCH. When I have been barely passing allll these years. The amazing effects of drama. raggedy muse
12:11 AM A dream is a wish your heart makes When you're fast asleep In dreams you lose your heartaches Whatever you wish for, you keep Have faith in your dreams and someday Your rainbow will come smiling thru No matter how your heart is grieving If you keep on believing the dream that you wish will come true In dulcet tones I hear one speak, 'Leave me alone, wretched day.' And I cry, 'Oh Lord, help me so!' I was flung, Flung from the depths, I engorge all existence. raggedy muse
5:05 PM Blogger format is looking really weird today. Been in the theatre the past few days again. Yesterday night I broke a personal record for the lastest time yet to leaves school, breaking our backs to move all the struts and boards back into school. 12.20, i think we left school. The world does look different from the back of a truck, and I'm sure we looked like illegal immigrants all in black, sitting looking very forlorn (well ok not exactly). But as madam tells us, smile, so that the police don't mistake us for child labour. Been up in the light box again for the J2 DEP exams, (note: we'll be doing this too in a year). It didn't all go too bad, except for my MAJOR screw-up with Rashomon *IM SO SORRYYYYYYYY* during Culminatio. I hope my seniors don't hate me now. Nah, my seniors are very nice people. (is wary that Chin the blog-stalker may likely read this (:) It was fun despite all that manual labour and stress over my hand determining the imminent fate of my seniors pieces. (Well, if i didn't turn on no lights, there would be no show. We can all happily watch darkness.) And I'll be culled and hung, burnt and pressed. GREAT JOB LOVELY SENIORS, LOVES YOU CREW (ESP ROX a.k.a. SLAVE DRIVER). We had lots of fun doing wacky improvisation on stage, 'The tale of 2 intestines', making SCHWAAA act like a girl and Mark roll all over the floor. And practising announcements following the tone of the music, (tried to do it over 'sexy back', didn't work.) On another note, we've had our first consultation. Didn't go too bad, and really happy to be working with Dewei. We can do this, we had better, our combined experience should call for no less. Went for SRT Midsummer's with complimentary tickets! It is real fun sitting on grass and watching the action go on all around, and my god was Micheal hilarious or what. HAHAHAHAAA. And by some kind of divine coincidence, many of the RJ kids went on friday as well! Met shannnn and jooo and liju, val, kexin for the first time in quite a while! And I didn't know that joo is RJ's new council president! HOW COOL IS THAT. Econs essay test tmr!! Which leads me to proudly say that I topped my class for our first practice essay! *BEAMS* I went back to school to see my handwriting photocopied for everyone, quite freaky. Just hope I do as well in ther test honestly. NEEDS TO STUDY. I HAVEN'T TOUCHED ANYTHING. |
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YINLING ♥ | | Birds flying high You know how I feel Sun in the sky You know how I feel Reeds driftin' on by You know how I feel It's a new dawn It's a new day It's a new life For me And I'm feeling good |
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CHATTERBOX
DECLARATIONS
WISHFUL
RUNAWAY
REWIND
CREDITS
Desiger/edited by: MilkshakeeeBasecode: doughnutcrazy Music: LALALA! Icon: Picture Cbox: Tag |
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