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7:19 AM i've been deprived of the internet for 2 days. sigh.... our wireless died on us, and it'll take forever to get a new one counting on daddy's speed in handling such matters. im stealing a breather from the school comp. whee. sigh. sigh. matriculation today. i have no idea what matriculation means, but it has something to do with being erm introduced(?) to rj, and give our first round of subj combi choices. and now for congress. grahh. don't really bother anymore, the juniors can suffer with the 100% white shoe rule and the no more cheering low for all i care. ^.^v i am a meano. alright. everyone is clamouring for the comp. bye internet. raggedy muse
12:15 AM I want to buy you flowers It's such a shame you're a boy But when you are not a girl Nobody buys you flowers I want to buy you flowers And now I'm standing in the shop I must confess I wonder If you will like my flowers You are so sweet and I'm so alone Oh darling please Tell you're the one I'll buy you flowers Like no other girl did before You were so sweet and I was in love Oh darling don't tell me You found another girl Forget the flowers Because the flowers Never last for ever My love --- You with the sad eyes Don't be discouraged Oh I realize It's hard to take courage In a world full of people You can lose sight of it all And the darkness, inside you Can make you feel so small But I see your true colors Shining through I see your true colors And that's why I love you So don't be afraid to let them show Your true colors True colors are beautiful, Like a rainbow Show me a smile then, Don't be unhappy, can't remember When I last saw you laughing If this world makes you crazy And you've taken all you can bear You call me up Because you know I'll be there my newest find, emilie simon. whee. been mugging pretty constructively for chinese today. one more day left. lala.
raggedy muse
10:26 PM raggedy muse
10:01 PM feeling a little low today. no reason. raggedy muse
6:48 PM http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS. ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS. credited to chewweishan for recommendation. wahaha. WHAT ME AND SHAN TALK ABOUT: ?SHAN? says: BACK WITH MORE LONGAN! just kidding. ling ? me would you lie with me and just forget the world ? says: hahaha i got cake! nice cake! wahahaha ?SHAN? says: FINE! omgomg now im jealous. i want cake! ling ? me would you lie with me and just forget the world ? says: wheee! ?SHAN? says: HAHAHAH YOU KNOW WHAT WE SOUND LIKE xDDd pregnant women with cravings and bingeing ling ? me would you lie with me and just forget the world ? says: -.-""""""""""""""" ?SHAN? says: ahhahahaha and bragging to each other about food xD sounds quite sad raggedy muse
1:22 PM reading through all the bao zhang bao da model essays, and all absolutely slam down on blogging. hmm, what exactly is the cardinal sin of blogging? don't really get it. yes sure, all those who abuse this privilege of the new age to execute personal attacks deserve condemnation, those who expose themselves to the tangible vulnerabilities of the big, dangerous web of the web, should be pulled away from access to blogging. but for others, which constitute the bulk, that fall in neither category, i see no adverse effects. neither is reading others blogs a perverted "peeping-tom" pysche, as they often put it. hmm. maybe these editors and writers might like to try blogging. recently fallen in love with nirvana. they were, of course, the turning point of the music scene in the 90s. they WERE the iconoclasts, the anti-icons that became the icons of the age. whee. along with this new found love, other old school but nonetheless eternal rock music. mainly inspired by my sister's playlists. led zeppelin, AC/DC, Pink Floyd, Marilyn Manson, system of a down, iron maiden, metallica lalalalala. justin timberlake's 'my love' is HOT. hee. raggedy muse
11:17 AM i want to watch death note and the prestige. why must there be o levels. sobs. countdown : 5 days. and i have started, but barely. whee. i am TERRIBLE. thurs, friday, sat and sun left to mug. i'll manage. i always have. whee. and then after that, number one on the agenda: GET PROM STUFF NO MORE TIME ALREADY haha, not to worry, almost all our class people haven't gotten anything. not the case for others though. maybe i'll just go in a rag. sigh. make the ultimate fashion statement. my sis said the prestige was really good. someone go watch with me. after o's. ah, after my o's, others will still be having o's. its ok, there's always the class people to fall back on. lala. If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads --- I can't stop the rain From falling down on you again I can't stop the rain But I will hold you 'til it goes away raggedy muse
10:30 PM wellios, nothing much happening, just SCHOOL IS REALLY ENDING. haha. study leave for the week, then chinese o's, 3 days in school and voila, done. and lotsa people not going for prom. sobs. happy that i got to know patso the snowskin mooncake a little better recently, even though i knew her from like primary school. loves ya pat. hwa chong beware of pat. heeee. crystal jade is good! muahahaha. didnt we have a nice lunch friends? i dont want to start studying. michelle lai you must start studying HARD and LOSE WEIGHT. cannot get fat! will miss ya liew aiqing PRIMARY SCHOOL BUDDY. thats of course if im not going to rj. im getting more confused these few days about jc choice. bibahboooo. hmm, im wondering, if i will still be close to the friends i have today as time goes by. will we fangfangfang? zerui? shannn? everyone? hmm. it'll be odd to be separated from people thathave been around me for like 4 years solid. FANGFANGFANG. sobs. lee sianying has some grudge against me, suaning me for 4 years liao. hahahahaha. actually, everyone is like mean to me. i'm fun to be mean to, it seems. my english sucks. why does my english suck? why cant i be like fluent, articulate and impressive in my writing. gahh. been on the phone for an hour plus plus plus with mich lai. we are still on the phone, enjoying the silence, doing our own things, making random comments now and then. ouch, my neck is going to be like, stiff. ALL YOUR FAULT. NO MORE MATH, NO MORE MATH, NO MORE MATH. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. while mich lai is doing math papers now. WAHAHAHAHA. *smugness* AHHHHHHHHHHHH. WHHHHHHHHHHEEEEE> GGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAJHHH <3<3<3<3 this has been the most disjointed entry EVER. enjoy. TATA. raggedy muse
6:33 PM sigh. i am unloved. why does everyone LAUGH when they hear i fainted in the lab?!! LOL. and sianying and joo were saying, ITS BECAUSE ITS YOU YINLING. if it were anyone else would we laugh? no! *whines* and shan msged a friend, and guess what the reply was. Hahahahahahahaaahahahahahaha. Oh i mean, is she ok? Hahaa. diaos. SOMEONE LOVE ME PLEAASSEEE. MY FRIENDS ARE ALL TERRIBLE PEOPLE. prom dress shopping was once again unfruitful. ooh, i saw eunica again! o levels still lazing arnd orchard ahh, tsk tsk. today was our last philo lesson! bye mr jeremy! ahh, the days left which my lovelies are diminishing and depleting really really quickly. raggedy muse
9:53 PM  When the cold of Winter comes Starless night will cover day In the veiling of the Sun We will walk in bitter rain But in dreams I can hear your name And in dreams We will meet again When the Seas and Mountains fall And we come, to end of days In the dark I hear a call Calling me there I will go there And back again - May it be an evening star Shines down upon you May it be when darkness falls Your heart will be true You walk a lonely road Oh! How far you are from home Mornie utulie (Darkness has come) Believe and you will find your way Mornie alantie (Darkness has fallen) A promise lives within you now May it be the shadows' call Will fly away May it be you journey on To light the day When the night is overcome You may rise to find the Sun Mornie utulie (Darkness has come) Believe and you will find your way Mornie alantie (Darkness has fallen) A promise lives within you now A promise lives within you now - Round a corner there may wait A new road or a secret gate And though I have passed them by A day will come I will take the hidden path that run West of the Moon and East of the Sun I am glad that you are here with me Here at the end of all things Night too will be beautiful And blessed, and then its fear will pass I must leave, must cross the Sea The love you gave is all I take with me - Manan elye etevanne Norie i melanelye? maybe, there is, not yet. i no longer know. but i will try to find my way home. and smile while at it. will i be that star? can i? that shines upon darkness. who will i be that to? ai! aniron ? i vethed n? i onnad. Si boe ú-dhanna. Ae ú-esteliach nad. N? boe ú i. Estelio han, estelio veleth Ae esteliach nad, estelio han. i no longer know what should i trust. i know to trust myself. rather which part of me to trust. raggedy muse
8:19 PM guess what happened today? heh heh, i blacked out during consumer chem. ^.^v i cut my finger trying to get my plastic weight out of the darn beaker. and kinda got really faint while washing it at the sink. i didn't even realise i blacked out, i don't remember falling to the floor. the cut wasn't even deep or anything, it barely hurt. :P my first time blacking out. whee. ok, well it wasn't that great, terrible headache after the blood returns to the brain. fangxun is a terrible friend. she just found it amusing. haha. i think i freaked val out though. heh. the news spread really fast, cos fang just walked down the corridor and announced to anyone we both knew. one by one: "yinling! you fainted in the lab?!" -.- I WAS FINE. haha. --- well. how should i start this. hmm. hmmmm. alright. here it goes. why did i love him for him. (isn't it odd the way everyone says fall in love? why not float into love? why fall? is it some connotation of hmm, vulnerability? pain? being unable to pull oneself out? plummeting into? hey, i tripped and fell for you. hee.) i never really said it out loud. i really liked how he was witty and funny, and oddly irritating in a cute way, that was really what got me to like him in the first place. one level deeper, he was intelligent, mature, with an excellent grasp of language and concepts, appreciation and understanding for literature, good movies, and had a certain depth that was more than one dimensional. there was something more complex under that goofy exterior, something dark perhaps, but acknowledging the dark side and understanding the shadows lurking in one-self he did. perhaps it intrigued me. perhaps i wanted to bring some light to it. really, i just longed to delve deeper, to be pulled in. above this was the way he made me feel good about myself, the way he let me feel loved. i truely did feel loved. it was the attention, the going along with me without complaints. it was the sweet and gentlemanly actions. really, it made me melt. i honestly just wanted to be close to him, for as long as possible. more importantly, over-arching all these, was the way he treated people, his character on the whole, evident in the great friends he had, whom he loved and was loved in return by. still does and is i would think. oh yes, i fell, i fell hard. i didn't exactly realise i did, till late. i think i subconsciously knew it all along, but i only began to realise it concretely on the last outing. of course, i didn't know that it would be the last. i made some subconcious actions, and when i realised i what i did, only then it hit me, to what extent i fell. it was really beautiful to me, as short-lived as it was. almost dream-like, or as if a magical illusion. maybe it was because nothing ever really solidified. it was, technically, nothing. but all this nothing, has meant more to me than so many other somethings. it really did hurt. it was 'being so close, and having so much to say, and having to watch you walk away, never knowing what could have been'. i never really got to know him. not truely, not deeply enough. the times spent really were magical, the times in between hard to bear, never really did get to spend so much time together. the times after even harder. i wanted so badly what i could no longer have. then again, there is perhaps value in it ending where it did. that way, it remains transcendent and above the savages of realities that ravage many loving relationships, and in a odd sense, remains a shrine or rather retains the basic and pure essence of what love is or should be. what ever that may be. haha, i am just desperately trying to find the ray of light to what were pretty dark days. but there is truth in that no doubt. what happened, was as if the lighting of sparklers. the flame comes into contact, in a moment, it ignites. it burns and sparkles in its small brilliance, its ethereal quality entrancing, almost magical, and one can't help but immerse him or herself in it's beauty, feeling like a child once again, and can't help but grin while waving that small ounce of brilliance, which belongs to you, and such a joy to behold. it burns, it sparkles, drawing one in even more. then before you can get enough of it's joy and beauty, it dies, still in its brilliance only a moment ago, without a sign or indication. magical, but short-lived. leaving one yearning for more, in longing for that brilliance and joy once more. thats why sparklers come in huge boxes, we can never get enough. we light one after another. too bad love doesn't come in multi-packs. heh heh. it really was heart-wrenching, yearning for something that you can no longer hold. that searing desire, which could not be quenched. that love which could not be shelved. do i still love him? probably. because if we look at it inside out, what's there not to love? but it no longer matters. it has been a choice that i have no other option but to accept and respect. i don't have to understand it. i do understand that i should not and cannot desire the unattainable any longer. and i no longer hope. i have watched him walk away. doesn't it sound quite heartless? haha. and a little bit of the ache is seeping back as i type this, but no matter. now the veil of emotion has been lifted, once again optimistic vision has returned to my usual happy self. i am sure that there are more beautiful, magical things waiting out there in space and time for me. it may never be the same, but who has to ask for a homogeneous set of experiences. it was unforgettable, and i will never forget. i just have to let go. there is nothing to hold on to. and this is closure. and that was my first love for you. (heh heh, so eeky) tata~! raggedy muse
9:35 PM went to both rj and ac open house. omgomgomgomgomg, ac's drama elective and ACSian theatre is really really tantalising. *melts* but of course, KI and lit tchers sound more convincing and enthusiastic at rj. wellios. what do i want? got a decision to make. --- i am really really happy to have all the great people as my friends. and i am sure i have said it and shown it enough i hope. :D loves. god i will miss u all if i go to ac. heh heh. have i said it too many times? well. whee. ooooh. i saw eunica at ac open house. long looooonng time since i have seen any of the ytsa's. and after that ze and me trooped down to orchard after lazing at my house (i insisted on lazing) and then hopped down to cityhall again. it was fun. except the fact that my shoes hurt like mad. ouch. had to walk in my socks on the street for a while. oh yes. we cam whored. this has been an aimless pointless post. *waves* raggedy muse
10:43 PM god. what's with splashing your whole life and others lives onto your blogs. like virtually SPLASHING. EVERYTHING. and the worst. it drags in others' lives as well. names and all. everyone knows. hahaha, its like the 'hottest' topic. best friend steals bf. well. number one rule in bitch blogging/emo blogging*: NO NAMES. number two: try not to bitch blog or emo blog. number three: ever heard of nuances and literary devices?! the worthy pieces of writing do not tell you directly, but invite you to peel down, infer and savour. what the hell is the value in leaving your life and emotions naked to everyone and anyone with internet connection. number four: its a damn open invitation for others to scrutinise and look down on you. you're just downright asking for it. you are rendering yourself vulnerable, and not leaving the other parties much choice but to be judged as well. number five: WHY ON EARTH MAKE YOUR LIFE A OPEN FIASCO AND ON-GOING DRAMA SERIAL. WHY PROVIDE GOSSIP TALK FOR EVERYONE WHO MIGHT KNOW YOU OR THE PEOPLE INVOLVED. OR WHOLE COMMUNTIES FOR THAT MATTER. i am not condemning the feelings that one might have. in fact, it is really quite understandable and may even be justified. but srsly. spare the attention seeking or whatever it may be that is fueling the intense need to splash. god. haha, ok. i've bitched enough. lala. this has been an entry sparked off by a specific incident, but it applies more generally. god, i sound mean. this has been pure personal opinion. *if you would still like to remain respectable --- GENERAL UPDATE: - my life has remained uneventful, peaceful, smooth-going, nice and erm pretty good. - finally passed up the acjc forms heh heh - cherishing the remaining 3 weeks in rgs with the wonderful comfortable bunch. - still leaving room for decision on which jc to go to, but my heart is leaning towards ac. 1. i MAY be able to perform better comparatively in acjc, in terms of 'thinking' wise, as mr ganesh puts it. being trained in the rp. rather than hang on to my dear life in rj with so many people doing better than me and equally or more apt in cognitive evaluation and 'thinking' wise. 2. new people. and not see the same faces i have been seeing for 4 years + lotsa ri boys. 3. cca. rj chinese drama is erm, less than spectacular. raffles players ain't bad i suppose, but all the eldds people will most probably be moving up and it'll be hard to fit in. ASCian theatre on the other hand, :D. if i can get in. 4. i can forge a new image for myself, adhering to the me at this point of time. the one forged or set in rgs has been in the making or rather set in a certain mould since sec one and onwards. and one has to admit significant growth and change. 5. there are just too many super over-achievers in rgs -> rjc. where will insignificant me stand? (haha, or something to that effect) 6. basically, a different environment from the one that i have been immersed in for 4 years. something fresh. 7. distance. i can literally hop back home in a flash. it is LITERALLY. a stone's throw away. 8. isn't it cool to be the one to embark on the road less travelled, the lone ranger?! haha, okay, this reason is really superficial and not crucial. heh heh. alrighty. time to hop to bed. i need to get prom stuff soon. prom is like, nov what 16 or something. and i'll be going to beiing and all from nov 8 to dunno when. and chinese o's is like oct 30. means i have what, a week to get my stuff if i dun want to rush. i can make it for starlit! i will miss all the lovelies. esp fang, shan, MATHEMAVIS, juicy joo joo, noo, sianying, anddd aiqing, patso watso, laksh, argh alot more. raggedy muse
10:40 PM LAST MATH TEST TMR. can't wait till its over. :D SIGHHHH. MY HEART ACHES FOR YOU DEAR. TIME FOR A CLEAN BREAK. SERIOUSLY, FORGET ABOUT SUCH A GUY. CAN YOU PLEASE FALL FOR SOMEONE MORE WORTH IT NEXT TIME. haha, no i am not angry. just take care okie dear? i shall not be paternalistic ( philo: liberty floods back), but just try to make wise decisions, and i will be here if that door you choose fails to lead into brightness, or shuts on you. my door is forever open, no matter how many close on you. (haha, the door analogy by mills or was it berlin) okie. brain numb. time to hit the sack. note to self: let it be let it be so be it forget it raggedy muse
4:01 PM much ado about nothing SONNET 116 Let me not to the marriage of true minds Admit impediments. Love is not love Which alters when it alteration finds, Or bends with the remover to remove: O no! it is an ever-fixed mark That looks on tempests and is never shaken; It is the star to every wandering bark, Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken. Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks Within his bending sickle's compass come: Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, But bears it out even to the edge of doom. If this be error and upon me proved, I never writ, nor no man ever loved. faded emotion upon my heart bestowed once more like the trickle from the tall tree's leaves after the rainy storm let not memory get the best of one's being and let time's wind fill the sails of one's heart-ship blown into the unknown beyond --- didn't go to school today! sickiee. still woozy. want to sleep... AHHH. MATH. sighhhhh. AHHHHH.
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8:16 PM i'm gonna be chronically addicted to strepsils soon. bad. cos strepsils comes along with a lot of sugar. bleahh. I HAVE ONE MONTH LEFT WITH WONDERFUL PEOPLE. ALVIN IS LEAVING FOR U.S. IN 3 MONTHS. ahhh. time is weird. a seriously odd entity. flash, and its gone. and one can never seem to catch a hold of its shadow. and yet, at the same time, it seems that what happened, only happened yesterday. has it really passed for so long? really? you mean its only been that short? but i seem to have known you for so much longer. it seems to have happened for so much longer. time alters beings changes existences, mindsets, hearts, minds. and yet at times it doesn't change certain things. maybe that's why we say to put things to the "test of time" i mean, if something can endure all the weird meandering and unfathomable nature of what we know as time, and all that it encompasses in its passing, well then that something, must be something. we can only hope and pray that what's left of the time left with the ones we love will last as long as it possibly can seem to be. and that the past time spent with ones we love, will last into eternity and be enough to be rationed through times of despair of reminscence of hurt of sadness and all that in between and beyond. and well. only time can tell what all the spans of time will be to all of us. it'll only be odd if you weren't sad dear. i'm sure that whoever knows. and i'm sure that whoever feels the same. and i know both of you will cherish whatever time is left. and whatever happens you'll be happy for each other and only wish the best for each other and have no desire to make the other feel worse. no apologies needed, if i may suppose. if no amount of my huggies will make it a little better than i hope that huggies between you both will help. anyhow i'm giving my huggies to you in unsurmountable quantity anyway. :) you're not allowed to run away. i need the hugs too. -hugs- MAN. I WILL MISS ALL OF YOU. SRSLY. raggedy muse
7:49 PM SICKKK. sniff sniff. barbie and lantern photos! i'm sure shan will have more, will get them soon, wheeee. BOTH FANG AND SHAN ARE MINE. GO AWAY. SO IS JOO AND ZE. :D realised how unprepared for chinese o's i am. i got 64 for chinese paper EOY. sigh. my english and chinese language standard has been on the downslide. SIGHHHHH. my o lvl entry proof is kiam cai already. save me.  me and ze! whee.
some of my favouritest people in the world~!(whom i will miss so darn terribly. SOBS)
and yes, that was how wet we got. raggedy muse
8:34 PM bi bah bi bah boooo. @*&!~~)_+K:SGAchvcfsP*(&^%$ itching restlessness in serene restfulness. searing desire in burning contentment. in cool flame. burn, baby burn. bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ggaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. grrrrrr. hurhurhurhurhurhur. BREATHE IN.... BREATHE OUT.... BAWL AND SCREAM. TAKE A MOMENT. :) this is one complicated, confounded, convoluted being. which would stretch for miles into oblivion if ever straightened out. so attempt to unravel my mysteries with caution. slippery slope and ad hoc abound. REBEL YELL. are you a rebel? am i a rebel? don't care if it is wrong or right. when you get what you want but not what you need when you feel so tired but you can't sleep stuck in reverse But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth light will guide you home and i will try, to fix you let us cross those fine lines and push the boundaries of the bounded let us blur those demarcations lacerations of the uninspired let us make what's wrong right and what's right wrong what's dark light what's light dark what's good is bad what's bad is good and let words lose meaning and let its power remain forever bulletproof i can't handle them. so let them blind me. so that i can see. i have not made any sliver of sense. good night. :D raggedy muse
9:38 PM it hit me that higher chinese o's is in 26 days. 0.O and i have finally filled in all my acjc admission forms and stuff. after a long while. hehe. hope acjc doesn't like take it as i am not interested anymore. we'll just hop over to RJ talk and AC open house and make a decision. trying not to base the decision on hearsay and my own whims and fancies. i have ONE more MATH TEST and ONE MORE EXAM. till emancipation. FREEDOM (NOT) FOREVER. wheee. watched some cute jap drama dragon sakura in school today. chem tcher didnt turn up so besides paper checking and math, i was free absolutely the whole day. which reminds me. fang went shopping! hur hur. there is only ONE MONTH around all the great people. ONE MONTH. it only hit me hard yesterday and today. ONE MONTH. SOBS. 4 years in rgs is ending really really really soon. been complaining about how i want to move on to new things and want school to end. and now the end is in sight, and im kinda reluctant to let it go. mainly the people, the comfortable environment etc etc. SHANNN. I AM GONNA NEED LOTS MORE HUGS PER DAY TO MAKE UP FOR WHATEVER I WILL MISS. that goes for everyone else. SOBS. i love you all. ----------- its a little bit funny, this feeling inside. how a little song can evoke so much emotion and memory, past or present, and draw it from the depths back up for a gulp of air. and it becomes ever more poignant, seasoning with age, much like good wine. each time it plays again in a while, new emotions are evoked, and it is savoured with more appreciation than the last. the same, yet richer. and each time feelings are attached, each time more meaning is layered upon. and all the more, that song is beautiful. raggedy muse
9:42 PM is today oct 3 already? time does fly. reminds me of chinese practice paper. page by page, we tear each day off our calenders, each day off our lives. the traditional chinese ones. hahaa. sometimes, once in a while, i feel my life is well, pretty pathetic. why? well, cause it is, pretty, uneventful. haha. but nah. it isn't that pathetic. actually, it's in fact, pretty darn good. love the people around me, things are all going well. just.. a little stale. i think i need some... hmmmm.. what does my life need? some kind of... i dunno... excitement? anticipation? know what? i need to fall in love. yes. that's it. to fall in love with someone or something. HARD. I NEED TO FALL HEAD OVER HEELS INTO SOMETHING AND HIT ROCK BOTTOM AND HAVE TO FIND MY WAY OUT LATER BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER. SOMETHING I CAN POUR ALL MY ENERGIES, PASSION, CARE INTO. TOO MUCH OF IT IS COUPED UP AND STUFFY INSIDE. ITS BURSTING TO GET OUT. AND MAKE MY LIFE COLOURFUL. SOMETHING REALLY WORTH LOOKING FORWARD TOO. ah yes. that is what my life needs. and that is the most i can or ever will ask for. give me a production to participate in. anyday. now! give me a person worth loving. and it can't be bad to be hooked on love. it really would be sad if one were turned off by it. well. im confident something will happen, soon enough. and i have the patience. it isn't long. till our family's trip to beijing! that's something to look forward to. how can one not love travelling? BUT I'LL MISS STARLIT NIGHT THOUGH. *SOBS* don't know if i will ever meet with the whole class in that way, IN SCHOOL again after starlit. also, not everyone is going for FAM. welllllll. i will miss everyone. i wonder how many of us will stay in considerable contact. especially if i am going off to ac. i will especially miss SHAN, FANG and so so so many many many kiddos whom i have come to love to hug and cuddle. and fool around with in class. my toilet partner. MY ADORABLE FRIENDS. WHAT IF I DON'T FIT IN IN JC. WHAT IF I HAVE NO FRIENDS. WHAT IF I BECOME A LONER. A LOSER. hahahahahaha. sorry. outburst of momentary insecurities. hahaaha, they were mentioning some flicker account with a photo collection of school girls hugging and kissing and what-not. and fang and shan were like, "just follow yinling around for one day and you will have more than enough photos." well in between mr chang's briefing sianying shouted across to me, "yinling, are u lesbian?" , and i very calmly replied, "no i am not lesbian". shan commented that i sounded as if i was always asked this question and had answered it all too many times already. hahaha. (NOT TRUE OK) and guess what ze said. " yinling, i know you're not lesbian. your bi." GIRLS AND GUYS. BEWARE OF MY LETHAL CHARM. WAHAHAHAHA. oi! i like to express my affection for my counterparts. is that a crime? :D not to worry, i don't think it would be so erm, rampant in jc. then again, we'll never know... *grins* HUGGIES EVERYONE. oh yes. we are geting back our papers this whole week. hur hur hur. hur hur. raggedy muse
2:45 PM yesterday's BARBIE <3 410 @ Zhen's was amusing. hahaha, everyone seemed to have fun with my cutesy water guns. the candle shooting thing was a flop for everyone aimed at 4 pathetic candles all at once, and obviously they all went off, without knowing who ever shot the flame. food was good! sambal stingray, satay, mmm, they were good lah! like good quality cos it didnt seem to matter how lousy the too-many-cooks were, they still turned out great. teachers came too! so cute! mrs tan brought the husband, miss ko and miss koh and mr thio! hahaha! taboo was amusing too. heh heh. and no, i didn't drink any of the vodka or spiked drinks, although many did, heh heh. it was a great turnout, almost the whole class came, so it was pretty cool. ah well, as all parties, gatherings, bbqs go. food was good, people were great, what more can one ask for? no school today! hail rgs for winning so many awards. <3 410 raggedy muse
3:38 PM yay! done with greek gods! yesterday was a blast. it didn't matter that many who said they would come didn't come. 4 of us got totally dunked into the pool, with me being tricked in there first. sigh, i am too trusting. pick up the water gun that they dropped in ACCIDENTALLY. righhhtt. I PUSHED FANG BACK IN THOUGH. wheeeeee. melvin and shan went in consecutively. alvin went home almost totally dry. lousy. we really played all the stuff that kids would play with, lanterns, sparklers, those blowy balloon thingies, bubbles, water guns. deprived childhood. heh heh. oh yesh, the deep fried samosas and spring rolls actually didn't come out too bad amazingly. WHO SAID RGS GIRLS CAN'T COOK. xiao mei mei had a lot of fun with 'brown kor kor' (HAHA), and she was crying when she had to go home. awww. and ze gave me a sweet sweet note. which reminds me. me: "zerui is so sweet!" joseph: "why did you taste her?!" -.-""""""""""""""' shooting bubbles, or attempting too, with water guns was amusing. i'll bring the candles and guns to class bbq later! fang's idea to try to shoot the flame with the water guns. HAHA. THINGS LOANED FROM MY HOUSE: 1 shirt 1 pair of shorts 1 sports bra (which was, eh hem, too loose for the recipient, HAHA. GUESS WHO BORROWED IT :P) 1 pair of my daddy's pants (my daddy found a pair that he used to wear when he was slimmer, heh) 1 pair of sandals THINGS LEFT AT MY HOUSE: 1 pair of soaked shoes i'll put the photos up when i get them! wheeee. |
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YINLING ♥ | | Birds flying high You know how I feel Sun in the sky You know how I feel Reeds driftin' on by You know how I feel It's a new dawn It's a new day It's a new life For me And I'm feeling good |
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9:53 PM When the cold of Winter comes Starless night will cover day In the veiling of the Sun We will walk in bitter rain But in dreams I can hear your name And in dreams We will meet again When the Seas and Mountains fall And we come, to end of days In the dark I hear a call Calling me there I will go there And back again - May it be an evening star Shines down upon you May it be when darkness falls Your heart will be true You walk a lonely road Oh! How far you are from home Mornie utulie (Darkness has come) Believe and you will find your way Mornie alantie (Darkness has fallen) A promise lives within you now May it be the shadows' call Will fly away May it be you journey on To light the day When the night is overcome You may rise to find the Sun Mornie utulie (Darkness has come) Believe and you will find your way Mornie alantie (Darkness has fallen) A promise lives within you now A promise lives within you now - Round a corner there may wait A new road or a secret gate And though I have passed them by A day will come I will take the hidden path that run West of the Moon and East of the Sun I am glad that you are here with me Here at the end of all things Night too will be beautiful And blessed, and then its fear will pass I must leave, must cross the Sea The love you gave is all I take with me - Manan elye etevanne Norie i melanelye? maybe, there is, not yet. i no longer know. but i will try to find my way home. and smile while at it. will i be that star? can i? that shines upon darkness. who will i be that to? ai! aniron ? i vethed n? i onnad. Si boe ú-dhanna. Ae ú-esteliach nad. N? boe ú i. Estelio han, estelio veleth Ae esteliach nad, estelio han. i no longer know what should i trust. i know to trust myself. rather which part of me to trust. raggedy muse
7:49 PM SICKKK. sniff sniff. barbie and lantern photos! i'm sure shan will have more, will get them soon, wheeee. BOTH FANG AND SHAN ARE MINE. GO AWAY. SO IS JOO AND ZE. :D realised how unprepared for chinese o's i am. i got 64 for chinese paper EOY. sigh. my english and chinese language standard has been on the downslide. SIGHHHHH. my o lvl entry proof is kiam cai already. save me. me and ze! whee.
some of my favouritest people in the world~!(whom i will miss so darn terribly. SOBS)
and yes, that was how wet we got. |
happy wet people.
